Impressive Instant: Life In The Red Velvet Chair

I threw back last night with Chad, doing a Velvet New Year's Eve. I really am too old for that shit. I felt very out of place and uncomfortable. No regrets though. I mean what the hell else was there to do, other than stay at home watching Dick Clark and falling asleep before the ball drops? Maybe next year I should actually go somewhere.

So I finally finished Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix (Year 5) yesterday. OMFG! So this will be a good movie when it finally comes out in 2007. I'm starting The Half Blood Prince today (Year 6). It's already starting out really good. Now I'm seeing why those freaks line up at midnight to get the new releases of this series. I guess JK Rowling has just started writing the last one. So who knows when it will come out.

I am full of rage. I am full of hope.

I need a long nap. Chloë woke me up last night at midnight, wanting to go play with Kitty. I guess that’s my fault since I went to bed at like 8 after taking Nyquil. She doesn’t sleep the whole night if I don’t play with her and wear her out.

Then at 1am there’s all this banging at the front door that I managed to ignore till 2am. Finally I went down and it was the tenant from the basement apartment, all dramatic. Went straight to John. So who knew. I shot off a nasty email to John, WTF Mate?!, this morning. I guess the guy locked himself out. No matter I LOST BEAUTY SLEEP! At my age I need all the beautification time I can get.

Anywho, I’m in a shitty mood today.

"Je suis desolé. Lo siento. Ik ben droevig. Sono spiacente. Perdóname! I’ve heard it all before... I don’t wanna hear. I don’t wanna know. Please don’t say you’re sorry. I’ve heard it all before."

God dang 4 o'clock in the morning I hear my roommate come home with some other peoples, loud as hell. It sounded like they had on lead boots and stomping around. Jesus Christ! What is it with this being woken up in the middle of the night this week? I'm getting pissed at a certain roommate not being courteous of the others in the house.

I was over in Capital Hill area today walking around with Phil. Looks like a nice area. I'm seeing a good amount of ads in Craig's List for decent priced 1 bedroom apartments over there.

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isn't hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

Imagine no possessions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer,
but I'm not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

Fuck! When do we wake up from this nightmare? Do we come back next season, hop out of the shower and Clinton is still our president?

So I've been trying out this dressing up thing for the office. You know, the tie and all since I have enough of them in the closet. Anyways, it's having an effect on my attitude, motivation and way of thinking. I think I was actually more productive this week.

American Life. I live the American dream. Is it for me? I'm not a Christian. I'm not a Jew. I'm just living out the American dream and I just realized that nothing is what it seems.

So I found the "Director's Cut" of American Life today. It's more than what we saw during Re-Invention. I feel that it's a powerful video. It's such a shame that we weren't allowed to express our First Amendment Rights during this time. It's bold, daring, shocking and very well edited. If she had released it at that time, she (Madonna) would have, as she feared, suffered a huge backlash. Perhaps, if released today, people would have a different opinion. Who knows?

You have NO idea how excited I am about The Sopranos coming back! 20 Episodes this year! Woo Hoo! This is the best show on earth. Yes, even better than The Simpsons. They've got then entire story line under some major tight wrap. It's gonna be good.

This season wraps up Tony Soprano's story. He's come a long way since the first episode that aired some 7 years ago (January 10, 1999). I'll be sad to see the series end, when the series concludes next February or March. I can't say that I've ever been as into a show as I have been with this series.

Activists on both sides of the divisive abortion issue held protests in Washington, DC to mark the 33rd anniversary of the Supreme Court decision that legalized the procedure back in 1973.

Besides the obvious irritation I had this morning over these protesters standing around lost and generally in my way at the Chinatown Metro station, I'm angry over the anti-choice protest in general. A majority of the protesters were children. These ~~right-wing religious fanatics~~ anti-choice parents should be ashamed of ~~brainwashing~~ using their kids to promote their political and religious agenda. These kids don't really understand the issue yet, thus are unable to make their own decision.

First off, abortion doesn't concern these little boys at all. If their parents are so worried about abortion, they should be teaching their sons to keep their dicks in their pants, when they're old enough to shoot baby batter. That solves the issue of abortion on their end! Men have no right to deny a women's choice over her own body. Their job is just to be supportive of the women that are in such a situation.

As for these underage, little girls, they haven't even had their periods yet! What do they know? When they're finally old enough for such things, then we can debate this. I venture to say that if these girls or any anti-choice woman ever get in a situation where they have to make a decision about a pregnancy, they will stop to rethink their opinions on a women's right to choose!

I don't know. I don't understand people that worry so much about what others are doing. It's typically the right-winged, religious fanatics that are like that. They are so hypocritical! They need to take care of their own lives before they start getting into other's lives. Like their Jesus said in the New Testament of the Bible, ..before you try to take the splinter out of someone else's eye, take the log out of your own first.

Went out last night with the intentions of just a few drinks. You know, just a respectable drunk. Yeah well, so such for that. Parts of last night I don't remember. Did a duet with Phil - Tell Him. I was William Shatner doing Barbara Streisand. I know we got pizza after leaving Apex. We.... well I stole one of those cheese shakers. Then giggled profusely when I dropped it when walking out of the taxi.

What's wrong with me that any alleged boy friends I've ever had never change their Friendster, MySpace, etc profiles to read "In A Relationship" because they "never use those sites anymore", but soon as they are in a new relationship after me they change that status for their next boyfriend?

Tomorrow is Friday! Tomorrow is Friday! Tomorrow is Friday! I've been so damn bitchy and aggressive this week. Was it funny for those not on the receiving end of my rage? Hells yeah! I just hate to be like that. I'm usually such a sweet, fun loving, happy guy! =)

In the spirit of free speech and support for the European countries that published these comics, prohibited in Muslim countries, here are 11 of the offensive comics.

I am so sick. My throat is killing me. I went to the doctor's this afternoon. He gave me some drugs. Hopefully they help me.

So I've been out to my family for 5 years, today. I can't believe it's been that long. Feels like forever ago. I really can't imagine what life is not being out, not being yourself. *shrugs*

The meds helped. in fact they are actually making me hyper. Hopefully all will be better by the end of the weekend! Keep your fingers crossed!

My baby turned 6 months old today. She's a teenager now. I'm so sad. Seems like just yesterday I was bringing my tiny little baby home and now look at her! She's all big and off doing teenage kitty stuff.

OMG Did you see my sweet baby Ace Young on American Idol? He sang Father Figure by George Micheal. He nailed it. Freakin nailed it! And I can't even begin to describe how beautiful he is. Those eyes! That hair! The perfect 5 o'clock shadow. And that ass! le sigh!

"You've got what we call that X-Factor. ..... It was really really good" - Simon Cowell

I got my raise and bonus or at least what they were trying to pass off as a raise and bonus for my annual merit, my additional work load and of course cost of living. What a freakin joke it was! So for the first time in my professional life, I said no. This is unacceptable. Thankfully, I had been smart enough to document everything that I had done throughout the year. I took that along with my research on salaries paid in the DC Metro area and my company and presented my case to my boss.

My boss 1. was surprised that it took me the weekend to come back to him with this rebuttal; 2. was impressed with my research and presentation; 3. said he will go to the Senior VP to argue my case with the information I presented.

Will anything on this matter improve? I highly doubt it, but I feel proud that I stood up for myself and made my case.

Yay Kylie doing a photo shoot! I still hold out high hopes that she'll come to America one day to do a concert tour.

As I've said before, it doesn't matter if you're good, bad, intelligent, ignorant, quiet or loud, the results are the same. I've tried my best to be positive over things and think the best of people. It's a waste of my time.

Oh! So after work today I went over to the music store to pick up the single to Sorry. I had a box from Amazon in tow and when I went in the alarm dealie went off. So I'm like here, hold this. I get the cd, pay and go to leave and the thing goes off again. Whatevers, here look in my bag, I didn't steal anything. The guy keeps wanting me to give him my bag so he can go demagnetize it. I'm like no! I have stuff in here that doesn't need demagnetized and just plain and simple I'm not handing over my bag. Do these people ask a woman to hand over her purse? No! After a minute of that, I just said this doesn't matter cause I'm leaving. Bye bye now! LoL

I find it quite rude to assume everyone is a thief, but I guess I understand the mentality. Same thing happened at Urban Outfitters a few months back. I walked in and the thing went off. They were putting me through too much jus to walk in the door so I just left. I don't need to shop where they treat me like I'm a common thief when I walk in. Jeez! What happened to customer service?

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Went out last night with Chad & Phil. Boogie woogied at Velvet. Boy I'm too old for that stuff. I'm spending today just laying around watching the Food Network and Style.

"I don't care how close you are, in the end your friends are gonna let you down. Family. They're the only ones you can depend on."

So I'm like whatever until we see Adriana. I'm like wtf?! I'm thinking we have a Dallas situation on our hands here. Then it turns out to be Carmella dreaming this deal. I'm wondering if this is going to be a theme for her like Pussy was for Tony.

I'm thinking Gene made the right choice hanging himself. Being a rat or not, I'm thinking they would have off'ed him after the doubts put in their heads over him wanting to retire. Then Ray just slumping over dead in the fed's car!? Oy! That was so unfair. The fucker needed justice! I wanted him whacked in some painful ways.

Janice is once again useless. Her having a baby is aiding her ability to do be self serving and useless.

Then just as I'm thinking we're winding down and I'm starting to lay back in bed to relax BAM! Jesus Christ! Fucking Uncle Junior shoots Tony in the stomach.

Dude, I'm mega stressed. This move, my freaking job, my freaking job, personal things and typical normal life..... oh yeah and my freaking job - it's all killing me.

I went on an interview Friday. Went pretty positive. I liked the environment. It's seemed very close to the laid back office I'm used to. I met the girl that I'd be replacing. She seemed very upbeat. The HR chick said she wants me to come back to meet the people I'd be working for. So we'll see.

"I don't want to swim the ocean. I don't want to fight the tide. I don't want to swim forever. When it's cold I'd like to die."

I'm glad to see Tony is having those dreams. It means that his brain is still running. However looking at what's going on in the dream I'm saying he's showing that he's not sure who he is as a person. Kind of like soul searching and the like.

Did you see that scene where Carmela broke down crying? Fuck! That was an Emmy right there. Hands down, THAT's an Emmy!

I'm thinking we're going to see AJ grow up this year. I think that Meadow is going to have a lot to do with that.

It's no secret that I'm extremely disappointed with my company for loading a bunch or responsibility on me and give me a whopping .1% raise. That's POINT ONE percent kids! Ehhh whatever though! I give 110% under the assumption they'd follow through with their financial promises. My bad for believing. Anyways - disappointed.

So I've not been all kittens and flowers the past month. I do my job. I'm direct, to the point with no flowers wrapped around what I say. I guess this isn't good enough. I get pulled into one of the leasing guy's office. My actual boss is too much a pussy to deal with this one himself, so he delegates! So he tells me that he's noticed I've not been myself lately. He said he's heard it was do to financial reasons. I say as little as possible so as to not have anything negative be reported back to the boss.

blah blah blah He tells me they want me to be happy and if I'm not acting happy than my work quality will decline. I said well I'm doing my job. He says well yeah, but you don't want to just do your job. You look like you're just doing the motions. I say again, I'm doing my work. Is there an issue with the quality? No no just that you need to be happy. Work hard to get ahead.

K, I busted my ass for over a year. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay more than was actually needed. Got the additional responsibilities. Told I'm going to get more cash January 1st. What do I get? POINT ONE percent raise! Yeah! I'm gonna get ahead here!

Anywho he keeps coming at me with this gotta be happy shit. I don't get it. He concedes that I'm doing my work and at the high quality as always. Though I'm being pulled into the office because I'm not all fucking kittens and flowers? FUCK YOU! Alright? FUCK YOU!

If I was in my early 20's and still didn't have the concept of responsibility I so would have written my resignation letter today.

"A lot of us don't agree with the choices Chef has made in the past few days. Some of us feel hurt and confused that he seemed to turn his back on us. But we can't let the events of the last week take away the memories of how much Chef made us smile. I'm going to remember Chef as the jolly old guy who always broke into song. I'm going to remember Chef as the guy who gave us advice to live by."

"We shouldn't be mad at Chef for leaving us. We should be mad at that fruity little club for scrambling his brains."

Alright enough is enough! That fat ass Vito GOTTA GO! He is so full of himself since he lost some weight. Someone needs to smack him and let him know he's still a fat ass! He will never be the boss nor will he ever be of any power. The end!

So Silvia steps up to be acting boss. Totally awesome. He isn't too into it, but knows his duty. None of those idiot mother fuckers will leave him alone though! It's appalling. No respect. Tony wouldn't take that!

So Carm goes to see Dr. Melfi. This is good for her. I don't know that she needs to see Dr. Melfi in the long run, but she should get her own. I just think it would do her good to have someone to talk to like that. It sticks with me when she says, "I told him I love him. When was the last time you heard that?" Then Jennifer asks her if she's afraid she won't feel like that after Tony wakes up. Carmella had nothing to say.

Then that whole Tony going to the family reunion and who's there greeting him? Tony B! Ooooooooo Tony hears a little girl's voice in the wind to not leave. There it is! It's Meadow. Oy! Next thing you know Tony is up. ... and fucking Christopher coming to him while the man still can't speak. Fuck you! None of these people have respect! None!

So I took today off. Hung out with a friend at the Tidal Basin to check out the Cherry Blossoms. Fun times.

The move to the condo has been officially approved by the condo association. So I'm moving next weekend. I called today to get the elevator reserved and such. They were trying to charge me some move in fee. That just made me laugh. Whatevers. I'm too stressed already to worry about it. I just want to get this move done.

Then I can concentrate on the job I guess. I've simmered down about that. It boils down to money. So I've decided I'm not getting out of bed for less than 10k more. Well I mean not out of bed for a new job. LoL I really do like the environment that I'm in right now. It's laid back and totally inappropriate. Of course I'll deny liking that if ever I need to sue!

Dear Mr. President
Come take a walk with me
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep
What do you feel when you look in the mirror
Are you proud

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why

Dear Mr. President
Were you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
How can you say
No child is left behind
We're not dumb and we're not blind
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pay the road to hell

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye

Let me tell you bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh

How do you sleep at night
How do you walk with your head held high
Dear Mr. President
You'd never take a walk with me
Would you

I think what I like the most is just that everything can be open and free. I don't feel like I have to be confined to just a certain area of the house or that I have to be social or any of that. Oddly enough though, I've been more social this past week than I have in quite some time. I guess it's just the knowledge that I don't have to be that makes me happy. *shrugs*

The Sopranos last night ..... Did I fucking have to see that Brokeback Mountain scene with Vito and that Johnnie Pancake man?! That was just disgusting and I NEVER NEVER want to see that 400 pound penguin man kiss anyone, let alone an ugly bicycle mustached redneck fag!

Now what I am finding interesting is the look into Anthony Junior's life we are now seeing. It's in essence giving us insight into Tony's life. We can see a lot of the same thing happening to him that he talked about over the years to Dr. Melfi. I also notice we're going back quite a lot to the pool out back. This time in a more relaxed way. I think we are seeing the full circle. Tony may be close to solving his stress issues that started the series out 6 seasons ago. Wouldn't it be funny to end the show with him at the pool with the ducks flying back?

Work is going ok. It's the spring/summer time, so I don't do a whole hell of a lot and just come and go as I please. My office mate's last day was last Thursday. So this week has been rather quiet for me. Much like before she left, everyone is still coming up to me asking me how I'm doing without my friend there. That line gets old real quick. So I keep replying with, ehhh good riddance!

I'm liking the apartment I'm in. Not that I'm a little socialite anymore or anything, but it's nice to be able to walk out the front door and everything is right there. Most beneficial is the three block walk to the office! Phil and I have been doing diner and drinks every Sunday for The Sopranos. Chloë is settling in nicely as well here.

I attempted to take her for a walk a few days back. Thought I'd walk her out of the parking lot and back in a quiet street where she could walk around in the grass. Well when we got to the grass she wanted back to the parking lot. Well so be it. Then she made a dash for under a truck and ended up slipping out of the harness I had her in. Well kids THAT will be the last time she goes outside. I gave it a good go, but I'm not risking losing her for some fresh air!

Next weekend is Velvet's final Madonnarama party. I'm kind of sad over that. The Madonnarama Party was the very first club party I ever went to and was the first of what was to become many Saturday evenings at Velvet. The first party I went with my friend at the time, Chad and some other friend of his. I think we were only there till like 2 and that dumb ass other friend had to go home sick. Pussy!

There were plenty more though - Madonnarama/The Drowned World Tour, The Drowned World Tour After Party, Madonnarama/American Life, Mini-Madonnarama .... There were a few others. One of which I stayed after Phil and Chad. The taxi driver tried to go home with me on that one. Then the last one .... Oooooooh boy was I drunk! *sighs* Good times!

Madonnarama #2 left to right - Anne, Chad (AC), Chad and Me .... ~~Fucked up!~~ Happy!

I hate when I get all retrospective and sentimental. I end up writing entries like the last one. *flips off the first two people in that picture*

I'm gonna tell you about love. Let's forget your life, forget your problems, administration, bills, and loans. Come with me.
In the demonstration of this evidence, some have called it religion. This is not a coincidence.
Would you like to try?

The Confessions Tour opened last night. Look where she comes out and sings!!! I'm gonna be RIGHT THERE!!!! This is gonna rock!

So American Idol this evening ..... Yeah yeah Taylor won. I haven't been watching in a while. Praise Cher I flipped it on last night! It was the funniest fucking show since last years DC Auditions. They were doing these stupid ass awards and that gay kid that looks like Clay Aiken , Michael Sandecki, won whatever. He comes out and they have him sing. Next thing you know Clay comes out. The kid sees him and about craps his pants he's so excited! I freakin lost it! Then Ryan has him sit in a chair and is like are you gonna be ok?

So I get called for jury duty. Ehhh whatever. I'm thinking I'm in there for the day, if I'm lucky out after lunch. HA!

OMG OMG, you don't know. Of all the days in the world I'm there when they are doing a freakin murder trial! I'm having panic attacks. Well it was a South East DC deal, typical that there would be a murder over there. The guy looked the profile.

Get this shit though. As I'm trying to think of a winning case as to why they shouldn't chose me to serve, the fucker falls asleep in the middle of jury selection. His lawyer goes over and bionks him on the head with his pen. So when I get called up to discuss why I should or should not serve, I say well I'm interviewing for jobs so that sucks for time and 2 I'm already thinking - HES GUILTY! He was over there sleeping and the lawyer….. blah blah. Then the lawyer is like no I didn't. I said hey whatever. So u lie too.